kiwi_from_hell (kiwi_from_hell) wrote,

What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
Worked full-time, wrote two dissertations, got drunk from just beer, went to a work party, took MDMA. Got a tattoo. And another tattoo.

Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I have no idea what mine were. I would assume they included, if they existed, doing well in my degree, getting a job and getting healthier. And those are done, though getting healthier is currently limited only to eating healthier, not getting more exercise.

Did anyone close to you give birth?

Did anyone close to you die?
No, thankfully.

What countries did you visit?

What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Enough energy to do all the things I want to.

What date(s) from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
February 10th: Broke up with Chris, asked Sam to come back to the house.
May 14th: Officially in a relationship with Sam. Though the "officially" part should indicate that it's wasn't really any different from May 13th.
June 26th: Finally opportunity to hand in work for third year (all nighter, writing two essays and half a disseration. The essays got 2:1s! The dissertation definitely did not.)
October 29th: Began my new job.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I finished my degree! And I got a really good job, eventually.

What was your biggest failure?
Taking a couple of extra months to finish my degree. Realising the day after I handed in my dissertation the exact reason why I had fucked up my statistical analysis. January.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not much, but while finishing uni the stress bought on migraines about twice a week.

What was the best thing you bought?
Glow in the dark stars for the ceiling of Sam & I's room.

Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My friends have been amazing this year. Kat, John, Clara, for all their support and kindness in February. Joanna for more support and quiet bearing of significant drama than anyone can be reasonable expected to deal with. Sam, for being the most supportive and respectful person - to myself and everyone he cares about - that I have ever met.

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Chris, obviously. I don't know if I really went into this here, but he did around £2000 of damage to Sam's stuff and scared the fuck out of both of us in the process. Still, it helps to have such strong confirmation that breaking up is definitely the right thing.

Where did most of your money go?
Rent. Food. Not exciting.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Being able to go to parties and not worry if my boyfriend was having a good time, going to make me leave earlier than I wanted to, or get drunk and be a dick to me in front of other people. New job. Results of my experiment. Also Borderlands 2.

What song will always remind you of 2012?
Work by Jimmy Eat World.

Compared to this time last year (2011), are you:
i. Happier or sadder? So much happier.
ii. Thinner or fatter? Thinner, a bit.
iii. Richer or poorer? Richer.

What do you wish you'd done more of?
Time with new friends, work on my degree, going dancing.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Not being able to sleep. Working in a fucking call centre.

How will you spend Christmas?
I have six days off, and I spent them with my family, which was lovely. Food, TV, gifts, etc etc. The usual.

What was the most embarrassing thing that happened to you in 2012?
A lot of my personal business was aired in public, specifically on facebook.

Did you fall in love in 2012?
Yes. Well, maybe before, but it became certain in 2012.

How many one-night stands?

Favourite TV show?
Cowboy Bebop.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Casual with amazing hair.

What kept you sane?
Friends, family, and my personal life improving at an astonishing rate.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Well yeah, the ex.

What was the best book you read in 2012?
My memory sucks for this sort of stuff. Ray Bradbury, Illustrated Man. I only recently read it so it's quite likely not really the best, but I can't remember what else I read or didn't read this year.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
This was the year of DUBSTEP and electro. So a whole new genre of music puts me rather in a position of "where to begin?" with this question. Torus. Prodigy (Invaders Must Die), M Machine, Skrillex, Modestep, Seven Lions, Knife Party, Justice, Wolfgang Gartner,'s been a very good year for music. For non-electro/dubstep, I would like to recommend a lovely little indie/poppy/folky band who makes gorgeous music. The Candle Thieves. For an example of a beautiful song of theirs, Balloon #3. For an example of a super-fun lovely song of theirs, We Won't Ever Be Rich (But We Could Be Happy).

What did you want and get?
A good job precisely like the one I have now. Okay, slightly better paid than the one I have now, with working less weekends, but in terms of day to day work - this is exactly what I wanted.

What did you want and not get?
A first in my degree, but to be honest that incredibly unlikely after second year was all fucked up through mental health and this year was all fucked up through crisis. To graduate on time. See crisis. But beyond that - nothing important at all.

What was your favourite film of this year?
Okay, so I haven't felt great about anything I've seen in the cinema this year - Avengers was probably the best and I liked it a lot. I don't see new films very much so this is a bad question for me. BUT, I've seen a lot of films this year that are old that I have absolutely loved. Casablanca (ridiculous that I hadn't seen it before, I know). There Will Be Blood. Troll Hunter (ridiculously good for such a silly idea). Before Sunset.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Well, my birthday is February 15th, so was very shortly after the significant date of breaking up with Chris. I didn't feel like doing anything because my life was a bit up in the air, so I didn't even remind any of my friends. But I do remember doing some uni work, having a really nice night of dinner & sex & awkward "neither of us want a relationship right now but let's cuddle and be really affectionate and totally ignore the smart decision of taking some time that we both agreed on and immediately broke." A couple of weeks later, as a belated birthday, I had friends over for the first time since everything went down, and they all knew everything from facebook and talking to Sam. It was lovely. Everyone told me how worried for me they had been, Kat told me that it was only because she failed her driving test that she hadn't driven down to Brighton to get me out of that house and away from him, John told me he was sorry for thinking bad things about me when stuff first happened and that from the second he saw how fucked up I looked when we ran into each other that week, he understood what I had been going through. Then we all got incredibly drunk and talked about how much we meant to each other. So I'm taking that as my unofficial birthday.

What three things would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Getting to know Sam properly, making new friends, developing an enjoyment for sitting in a pub for hours talking shit.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Can I pick an animated character? The very first animated character I've had a crush on - Spike in Cowboy Bebop.

What political issue stirred you the most?
The cuts, and the reviews of disability related benefits. These directly effect my work now, and lots of my clients are having their claims rejected despite the fact they can't cope on JSA, because they didn't know how to handle the interview. If anyone needs advice: answer everyone question as though it's preceded by "on your worst day".

Who did you miss?
My family - this is the least I've been able to go home so far in my life, so there's some adjusting there. Also my high school friends, for the same reason. I haven't seen them since Easter.

Who was the best new person you met?
I believe Seb was new this year (boyfriend of someone who I know through uni). He's lovely and funny and very emotionally open. I'd like to get to know him better. Also, to be honest, my boss, who I'm not at all close to but is pretty much who I want to be in 10 years.

What is a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012?
This life is actually yours to do with as you wish, so make your decisions based on what you want, not what you feel you should do. I guess I learned to prioritise my own happiness and goals.

What quote can be used to sum up your year?
"The more decisions you are forced to make alone, the more you are aware of your freedom to choose."

Have a happy new year, everyone. I hope 2013 brings me as much happiness as 2012, and everyone who had a good year. For those of you who had a bad year (which, sadly, seems to be many people I know), please know that in January 2012 I was at the lowest point of my life, and from February this year became the best I have ever had. Things can change faster than you think. For me, everything changed in a week. A terrible week, but then my life started again and I was beginning to be the person I wanted to be.

2012 has been the best year of my life. Lots of things may change, and I may lose all of the good things that made this year so amazing - but I will always treasure it for the things that have learned about myself and about what I want out of life.

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